As I opened my Bible I ask the Lord to open my eyes, that I would see the truth in His word.
I realized then that sometimes He has to strike us blind so we can truly see.
I thought abut Paul and how God took his sight from him
Then I looked back on my life.
What a horrible person I had been.
I asked the Lord why He would want someone like me.
The more I looked the more I could see the changes He made in me.
I'm becoming a different person all together.
Then I read," Greater is He that lives within us than he that lives in the world".
I realized that what I saw in me that was good wasn't me but the Holy Spirit.
When I was unforgiving and I read that I had to forgive, those who hurt me or the Lord wouldn't forgive me. I didn't think was possible.
Everyday I look forward to seeing what the Lord will let me see next.
The more I see the more I want to see.
For the Lord has set my heart on fire to know Him better.
His living water runs through me.
I want to know Him more.
Then I prayed for the Lord to open my ears.
I want to hear when He calls me.
Even if He whispers I pray I will always hear Him.
To be in His will is what I desire.
Seeking Him with every breath I take.
Walking with Him in all that I do.
That my cup will over flow with the joy of the Lord.
Then the Lord said to me, do not be deceived with by untruths.
Seek counsel from sisters and brothers in me.
Pray and know that I am God.
Be still and listen for the answer you seek shall be given to you.
Be still and know that in my timing, you will hear my answers.
Be still and know that I will never leave or forsake you.
But remember that sometimes the answer will be no.
Always remember that I am in control.
Let my peace fill you for I will never harm you.
As I pondered over all these things I thought of my son.
How many times I told him to let me think about his request.
How many times I told him to be still so I could weigh the pros and cons.
How many times that my answer was no.
I didn't say no to hurt him.
I said no because I didn't want him to be in harms way.
I said no because I loved him.
As my mind tossed my feelings to and fro.
I realized how great God's love for His children.
God is love.
How many parents would give their child to a group of people we knew would kill them?
I for one would rather die than to put my son in harms way.
God gave His son that we might have everlasting life.
All we have to do is believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and that Jesus is the Son of God.
How great is God's love for us?
There is no greater love.
Not even the love we have for our children
Then I realized that Ricky was not my son, he was a gift from God for me to keep for a time.
Ricky asked Jesus into his heart and is now filled with the Holy Spirit.
God is Ricky's Heavenly Father and will return to Him when it is his time.
Praise God for the wonderful gift of love He gave me.
When Ricky was in the Marines I gave him back to God.
I knew God would hold Ricky lovingly in His arms, so no harm would come to him.
God reminded me to love everyone, even my enemies.
To love the sinner but not the sin.
Praise be to God for He is love.
Praise God the Father, Jesus our savior, and the Holy Spirit.

Linda ©2007